




Not your usual lighthearted animal tale. Kids may want to skip this one.
It was the night before Thanksgiving and I was cleaning up the house. The cats wanted to go outside, so I let them out as usual. My brother Steve came over and he brought his dog, Ray. Ray is very nice and gentle, and has never chased the cats or threatened them in any way, but the cats always freak out when there are any visitors, human or canine. I should have anticipated that the cats would want to disappear, but I forgot about it in my rush to get ready. When they are inside, they hide in the basement, but if they are outside, they just stay away if someone strange is around. We usually pull the cats in every night, but that night I didn't. I was too tired to stay up looking for Cuppy and Speedy, a process that sometimes takes a few hours, so I left the door open (they have a cat door in the front door) and figured I would see them in the morning.
The two cats stayed out all night, and Speedy came inside and went up to Andrea when she was getting ready for work. I was up when Andrea got in her car drove down the driveway. As she was leaving, I went outside to find Cuppy.
Unfortunately, Cuppy was hit by a car right across from our driveway, just when Andrea was at the end of the driveway. Andrea stopped as she was pulling out of the drive and found Cuppy beside the road. I could tell something was wrong, so I ran up to see what the problem was. The cat had just been hit moments before and was still warm, but was obviously dead. Andrea was distraught, but had to leave for work.
I took the sad little cat body inside. I thought Zach was still asleep and my first impulse was to bury the cat before he could wake up. On the way in, I ran into Eddy, Cuppy's sister, and I bent over and let her sniff Cuppy, so she would know Cuppy was dead. This is something I heard a long time ago, that pets can become confused and try to find a missing pet companion, but if they get to see that they are dead, they understand.
As I was going through the house with the cat in my arms to get a piece of plastic to set her on, I looked down the hall and saw that Zach was up and was out of his room, at the end of the hall in the dark. I was standing there with Cuppy in my arms, but it was dark, and I doubt he could see her. What he said next was bizarre, though.
"It's scary outside. Cuppy."
How did he know?
I ended up letting Zach see her, and I tried to explain what happened. He was not upset and seemed to understand.
We buried her under the hedge tree next to the compost heap. I wrapped her in one of my favorite old Durango Colorado t-shirts that I had worn until it was a bit tattered. Cuppy always did like to sit in my laundry basket and rub herself on the laundry I had worn. My last picture I took of her from a couple of weeks before was in my room sitting in my laundry basket.
The first day I went back to work, I was coming home with Zach and parked the car on the driveway and got out and stood there a moment. I was thinking about how she would run up to me if she was outside right when I pulled up in the car. She also used to meet and greet me at the end of the driveway when I finished a run, where she would rub against my legs, then lick the salty sweat off my forearms when I sat down to pet her. I stood on the driveway and realized that she would not be coming up to see me any more and Zach said "Where's Cuppy?" I'm not sure how it was that he was thinking the same thing.
Cuppy loved being outside and always mewed loudly to be let out. It was usually difficult to get her to come inside. She had some kind of homing instinct, and when she felt threatened outside or was blocked from coming back, she would go into the woods on the other side of our neighbor's house. We think this is the place where she was born. When the house next door was empty all those years, I would go through the empty yard and walk the fenceline along the mowed path and call her name. She would come out, very happy, sometimes not even minding if I picked her up, purring loudly as I carried her home. She would do what Andrea called the Licky Cheek Rubbers, where she licked your hand and then rubbed her jaw line on your wet hand, so she could groom herself with your hand. Once home, she would beg for some milk and then go find a place to sleep, usually in my laundry basket on a pile of my dirty clothes. Tracking her down at night was often a pain in the ass, as she could stay hidden outside through several attempts to call her in. Since the new neighbors moved in, I was no longer comfortable walking across their yard in the dark to retrieve her if they were home, so getting her in at night got even harder.
Cuppy was also the cat that would bring the mice and birds she caught into the house. She was a busy little hunter, and Andrea would often call on me to remove her trophies from the floor and take them outside. It was really exciting when she brought in something that was still alive, and we had to frantically chase it down. She did not understand that this was not a good thing, she was always proud of her catch. She could be a little angry and feisty sometimes, and she clawed me a few times when I had her cornered and she didn't want to be picked up.
We found her with her two sisters about 6½ years ago, abandoned by their mother, hungry and scared. She got sick twice, and was near death both times, but we nursed her back from the brink. She had a little notch in one ear where one of the older cats slashed her, and when she was little the bigger cats were pretty hard on her, which forced her to be sly and scrappy. She was tougher and gutsier than her sisters, and more independent. I always felt like she was my cat, and honestly, she was my favorite of all the cats. I thought she was terrified of the road and never went up there, so the fact that she had been across the street surprised me. I can't count the number of times I took a high beam spotlight up to the road to see if she had been hit after looking for her off and on for a couple of hours with no success. Andrea said she died doing what she loved, being outside, which was true, you really couldn't keep her inside, she always wanted out.
Since she's been gone, life has been a little easier. There's no more cat round-up, and no one begs for milk in the kitchen anymore. We don't have to worry about finding a snake or lizard in the living room. While this is more convenient, I would gladly have put up with these minor inconveniences just to have her still around. She will be missed.